i’m going to beths tomorrow for one last girly night in with her and her mother before she leaves for uni.
i forgot to buy her a good-luck card and so she’s pressuring me into writing her a letter so she can read it when she gets to uni so it’s like a little present thing, idk. it’s some soppy shit that she wants.
however, i can’t write anything.
katie’s usually the one with words. i once wrote a big piece in her birthday card and everything i put i had to cancel out - like i’d say “i love you… but sometimes you’re a tit” and it’s like that the entire way through… I DON’T DO EMOTIONS. I’M NOT EMOTIONALLY STABLE ENOUGH TO SAY WHAT I FEEL ABOUT PEOPLE.
anything i do write makes me out to have the worlds biggest lesbian crush on her. and it sounds really fucking creepy. i might as well just write “just come suck my fanny in the dark” or something.
i’m 99.9% sure i’m going to write out the harry potter quote we want and at the end add the quote which sums us up: “I love her and that’s the beginning and end of everything” and if she doesn’t like that then she can swivel.
but even that is making me uneasy because it’s too deep.
my paper boy - who is a boy i used to meets brother - just stared me out and said i look really pretty with no make-up on.
he’s about 17.
and i have my hair scrapped up - i’m unwashed with no bra on.
IS THIS WHO WILL LOVE ME? SOMEONE A LOT YOUNGER? NAMED WADE?
My book review is about Christian missionaries and how they have helped people in the Southern continent and how Christianity has spread from the West and why it’s a lot more prominent in places like India/Africa.
So queue me and my nan watching a programme about how Christian missionaries saved this little tribe in Africa from eating everyone. I’m absolutely pissing. Christ has literally saved. One of the preachers and priests in the tribe used to eat people considered to be practising bad witchcraft. Oh God.
I am so attracted to Christoph Waltz…
But then every time I picture him I either picture him as a nazi with a swastika in his forehead OR an elephant beater.
I MEAN, K HE PLAYED THOSE ROLES BUT THOSE ARE SCARRING AS FUCK, YO.
but in interviews and google images he seems like a lovely person….
and you know what? he is hot as fuck with a beard. Like… you all know my love for beards and he wears a pretty excellent one: